Some people are meant to stay, and others go, even if you don't want them to.
The hardest thing I've experienced during my travels so far is leaving people behind. I don't like goodbyes in the first place, but they're okay when there's a "see you again" or "keep in contact" involved. However I've met the most amazing people that I've left behind without saying goodbye, without any form of contact, without a single photo to remember them by, and I dread the day that their faces fade from my memory altogether.
I'm simply not used to having a relationship end against my will. I'd never had a bad fall out with a friend until last year, and it plagued me for months. I've never lost a family member. When I moved schools, friendships dissipated over time while I was building new, stronger ones.
It's been hard. Hard to remember them for the time that we had together and the experiences we shared without getting down about the fact that I'll never see them again, never talk to them again. Hard to not let it cloud over the most incredible memories that I now have and even harder to not be scared that those memories will fade over time. It's hard to let go.
But I'm learning.
The hardest thing I've experienced during my travels so far is leaving people behind. I don't like goodbyes in the first place, but they're okay when there's a "see you again" or "keep in contact" involved. However I've met the most amazing people that I've left behind without saying goodbye, without any form of contact, without a single photo to remember them by, and I dread the day that their faces fade from my memory altogether.
I'm simply not used to having a relationship end against my will. I'd never had a bad fall out with a friend until last year, and it plagued me for months. I've never lost a family member. When I moved schools, friendships dissipated over time while I was building new, stronger ones.
It's been hard. Hard to remember them for the time that we had together and the experiences we shared without getting down about the fact that I'll never see them again, never talk to them again. Hard to not let it cloud over the most incredible memories that I now have and even harder to not be scared that those memories will fade over time. It's hard to let go.
But I'm learning.
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